it's officially feeling a lot like summer around these parts. like seriously. I'm melting, I tell you. my hands feel like they're constantly leaking sweat, which is making it really difficult to make progress on the reversible rib shawl. I knew there was a reason people don't wear much mohair in the summertime. it sticks to sweaty hands! big time.

also, it's may, which we all know means it's big season finale time all across the board. I haven't knit for evenings on end, because my fingers are too busy making sure my teeth can reach my fingernails. hello, grey's anatomy! hi! lost!! *faint* how do I get so emotionally involved in the lives of these fictional characters?

anyway, back to knitting. I was just talking to my good friend (hi, friend!!), who just got back from a trip to china, where she bought some crazy cheap yarn. and saw lots of people knitting away, sans pattern, making awesome stuff. we've talked before about how some people are just so creative and it seems so amazing that they can just come up with their own incredible designs and, omg, how did they do that?? and then you go to a poor country, where they don't have access to the patterns and stuff that we do here in the land-o-plenty and everyone seems to be able to just come up with crazy stuff all on their own. just regular everyday people! makes me wonder if the laziness and lack of creativity that we suffer from stems from our wealth as residents in a place where you can just buy whatever you need. it's too much work to try and design a sweater on my own, but no prob! I can just buy one by searching on the internet, or buying a book or a magazine. or just buying a sweater in a store. so is it that I just don't have the capability to write my own pattern or come up with my own design because I'm "not that kind of person" or is it that I've been so conditioned just buy whatever I need? like there's no need to be creative anymore because someone else has already done it for me? I can just spend $5 for a piece of someone else's creativity. it's like everything has gotten to be so damn easy. no thinking required. I don't know why I feel like that's so crazy. but I do. there is definite boggling of the mind going on right now. aren't we, as humans, creative beings at the core? I think we are. and it all comes back to this: I need to move to china.